Continuous inner trembling
by Havah-Leah
(Israel)
Since around 5 years I have problems sleeping well. I wake up with a pounding heart, and a throbbing head. Sometimes it feels as if there is a band around my head. But what I found the most alarming symptom is the 'inner trembling' I am feeling, as soon as I lay down to sleep. It feels like I am lying next to a motor running, or sleeping on top of a fridge or something. So in the beginning I looked to the outside, I had my home checked for EM fields (not beyond any 'normal' level), I checked out where mobile phone masts were located etc. I turned off all electricity in my home, did not alleviate the inner trembling. Now I think it is a physiological symptom of emotions or of inner cleansing. I have done the whole round with medical check-ups, blood work, even an MRI to see if I did not have a brain tumor. Psychiatrist even, who thought it was chronic anxiety and prescribed Cipralex, an SSRI, which I still carry around and don't take, cause I do not like to mess around with my brain. I do think anxiety plays a part, I am an anxious person and I live in Jerusalem, not exactly the quietest place on earth. Also a real Power spot, where the energies of Light and Dark clash in a big way.
Anyway, it is not good for me to do any spiritual work, or meditate, or pray, (then it gets much worse) I have to do grounding activities, like working in the garden, cleaning the house, or imagining very strong roots going deep into the earth. I would like to hear of others who experience this 'inner trembling', like all your nerves are fluttering.