Experiences of Loss and Sorrow
by DF
(Bend, Oregon)
I am in a place of sorrow. I caregive for my 83 yr old Mother. At the same time I am trying to learn massage and get a license to practice. I lost my precious dog 5 mo ago and miss her deeply as she got me through and was the light of my day. I have anger and resentment issues against my two older Sisters who do not participate in taking care of my Mother, but talk with my Mother often by phone and they all act as if she is okay and all is well with the world. My Mother forgot my B-day but remembered theirs and my adult niece. I have some resentment for my Mother wondering why she put ME in this place. This is a long long story but, I am trying to learn to put aside these issues and it has been a big big challange for me. I have decided to think of me and do the things necessary for me to be healthy and happy. I have diabetes, but I am fortunate to have it under control through diet and want to keep it that way. I have a chronic neck pain since last November that I have gone to a Dr about and he gave me shots in the neck that did not help. I now see an acupuncturist and am hoping I will see relieve soon.