Shambhala and the Silver Centaur

by Elle
(Arizona)

December 7, 2010

I have continued to go through drastic changes in the last few months. I guess there was some finishing up to do for the end of 2010 in preparation for 2011. And I'm like a sponge learning SO MUCH in a very short amount of time.

I realized that I had gone thru the "dark" aspects of myself with my yucky experience at a job in New Mexico a few months back. I read a book called "The Black Sun - The Alchemy and Art of Darkness by David H. Rosen.

Reading that helped me understand that what I went through, although seemed to be THE scariest thing I've ever gone through in this lifetime,was just a process of inner Alchemy. So I'm done with it, gave gratitude for the learning experience, and came out of it with a better understanding of the integration process. All scary paranoid feelings and attachments are TRANSMUTED and RELEASED.

So now off to the next step of "integration". I slept for about 30 hours straight in the last couple of days. I had many dreams, but the one that stood out was a magical mystical dream with a fairy tale feeling. When I woke up it gave me the feeling of magic that I felt when I was a kid. I had an extremely vivid imagination as a kid. The song I heard as I was waking up was "Ask the Mountains" by Vangelis; a beautiful song that evokes that childhood feeling. I asked my Higher Self where this feeling came from and I got the word "Shambhala". As I was pulling away from the feeling, I saw a Silver Centaur and I also saw the words spelled out in front of me. So later in the day I went on the computer and searched "Centaur in Shambhala" and this is what I found:

http://newsgroups.derkeiler.com/Archive/Rec/rec.games.frp.dnd/2006-04/msg00776.html

It refers to the writings of Ken Wilber regarding The Centaur as part of the integration process. And it's funny because
his book publisher is "Shambhala".

So I've learned that I shouldn't have "hope" because hope is seen as an attachment to outcome. So I guess I won't use hope but I'll use "Faith" and "Belief" that the hardest parts are over with. I know the rest of the way won't be easy, but I have Faith and Believe that it will be no more than I can handle (and maybe just alittle easier?).

Sending lots of LOVE

~Elle~