Sometimes I feel Invisible...
by Charlotte
(California)
...does anyone else have this happen? I can literally be in a room of people who don't know me, and it's as if they can't even see me! I mean, I speak and no one acknowledges that I'm even speaking, they bump into me as if they couldn't see I was there. There seems to be very little I have in common with everyday people. This is very strange to me, and I started to become self-conscious, like there was something wrong with me, or I must be giving off weird vibes or something. I am feeling like I'm not sure who I am, my identity is sort of melting or something similar to that. My eating is different. Nothing tastes right anymore. I think I'm hungry, then I don't enjoy the food except, for some reason ice cream and natural yogurt and apples. I've recently become unemployed and took a 5 week training for new skills. I've always been one to work hard and with pride in my work, but now I seem to have lost my ability to sell myself in the market place. I don't want to compete for a job like I used to. I just don't seem to fit in anywhere anymore. I have had lots of skin rashes and my face is breaking out worse than in my teens. I am very uncomfortable in this body right now. I have increased telepathy right now. I seem to already know what people are going to say, or are thinking and I creep my close relations out. My boyfriend says he can tell when he's going to have a problem with something because I know before him and will mention it just before it happens. I think I scare people. Is this happening with anyone else?