Suffering through illness and death

by Aileen
(Australia)

I have done a lot of grief work and healing but I am really stuck in letting go of the suffering my daughter had to experience when she had a bone marrow transplant after being diagnosed with leukaemia. Her treatment was horrendous and I am still deeply affected by it 9 years later. I cant seem to let go and suffer flashbacks and pain of not being able to save my daughter. I am also deeply hurt by God that he could allow such suffering as my prayers were constant. If she had to pass, it could have been such a more gentle passing.

I hope you can help me.

Thanks

Aileen